I would spend many hours sat along side June, firstly getting her to read my cards so frequently, that she was known to say "you will shuffle the spots of these cards one day Gaynor" but I was fascinated by them and her. But no matter how hard I tried to learn them, I did not get very far. I bought numerous packs of Tarot cards in the hope of finding one set that would eventually talk to me. In the late 1990's I became exasperated as I had read so many books on the subject and each book although very similar had a different slant on each card. I was getting bogged down with everyone else's idea's of what the cards meant. In retrospect, this was my biggest mistake.
I eventually had a pack of cards I thought I could relate to. I wrote a whole book on it and which layouts I would use in the hope that this would help my goldfish memory. Alas I still had to refer to my own book to do a reading, how frustrating was that. Over the years I would bring the cards out, read them for myself and others for a while and then put them away again for a few more months before bringing them out again. I never felt I did a good job, even though others told me I was right in what I had told them, for me there was something not right about the way I had to try and remember each card, it was such hard work. Layouts were another nightmare... what each card meant in each position... I used to want to scream!
I had visited no end of different psychics over the years from the age of about 14 and got to know the difference between a good psychic and a card reader. The quality of the reading was so different, and I knew that I wanted to be a good psychic and not just a card reader.
As time moved on I continued to keep getting the cards out, reading them, get frustrated with my results and pack them away again. Then one day in early 2003 I saw an advert for a tarot course. Even thought I had even written a book on the Tarot I went along as a complete beginner in the hope of once and for all getting it right. I was so disappointed with the course. For one thing it only covered the Major Arnica and I wanted to know about the whole pack. On the last but one evening, our course leader told us we were going to learn to do spreads. Ah, I thought - great. This is what I need. We were told to choose three cards and put them face down on the floor in front of us. We were then to read them as past, present and future and interpret them in our own way. I gave my interpretation of the cards and she made the mistake (as far as I was concerned) of telling me I was wrong. For the very first time in my life, I had read the cards and interpreted them as I saw them, not as she saw them or any book saw them, but as I saw them. Of course she thought I had read them wrong because my interpretation of the cards differed from hers.
I cannot remember now, what the cards were or in what order they appeared, only that they included the star and the tower along with another card. I had just gone through a separation and had just met a new man. She contradicted my reading in front of everyone telling me I should not waste my time with this new man that it would be a disastrous relationship. I left the evening feeling more than a little upset, one because I felt she had humiliated me in front of the group and second because she told me not to waste my time on this current man. What she and I didn't realise at the time, was that this was the beginning of my own learning curve. My intuition told me that I was right and she was wrong, I didn't go back for the last week or my certificate.
What this person didn't know was that I had started another course with an intuitive reader. The first day on this course was my light switch. My mentor said to me - look at the card, not the name of it, but look at the picture - what does it tell you. She told me there was no right and wrong, she taught me to listen to my own intuition and my spirit guides and what they are telling me about the card. She told me that each time I look at that card it may have a different meaning, she asked me to look and see if any of the pictures were moving, she told me that the card may mean one thing for one client but something totally different for the next. How could I have thought I could learn this from a book. It was like someone had flicked a switch and turned me on. The pictures do in fact change, sometimes right in front of my eyes and yes I can see them moving. I know what you must be thinking - that it is not possible for a picture to move, and of course in reality it is impossible - or is it?
Although my first tutor had told me my reading was wrong, in my heart I felt it was right. I am so glad I didn't listen to her as that man who she told me not to waste much time on is now my very wonderful husband who has in the past and still does support me 100% in all that do. This event also taught me to be a responsible reader and be careful in what I say to people. If my clients interrupt me and give me their interpretation, I will always work with them and never tell them they are wrong - for at after all, it is their reading we are working on.
Although I could now read the cards as to their meanings I was not satisfied. I wanted to be able to read for others. Again I went to see other card readers to see how they did it, and still I was no wiser. Then on one evening in my therapy room, I sat down with my now favourite pack of cards and closed my eyes. I asked my guides to tell me how to do a reading for others. It came to me as if by magic. I got my husband up and sat him down and did my first reading. From then I just went from strength to strength. Once I found the technique that worked for me, I was able to read any cards. In fact one Christmas when I was away on a psychic practitioner training weekend, set me a challenge. Three of us were staying at a local pub overnight and she took a blank piece of white paper and screwed it up. She then unwrapped it and lay it flat on the table and asked me to give her a reading form the crushed up blank piece of paper. At first thought she had had too much wine and was having a laugh, but no she was deadly serious. I picked up the paper and tuned into my guides and proceeded to give her a reading which she later told me was spot on. This was all the proof I needed to know that I could now read anything you put in front of me, in fact if you put nothing in front of me I will still give you a reading as, I now know that the information comes from my guides and the cards or the blank piece of paper is just a tool.
All psychics work in different ways. Many will tune into your aura and tell you how many children you have, what colour your car is, what job you do etc. I see this as an invasion of privacy and do not do this. People who work in this way run into difficulty when the other person shuts down or blocks the connection. I work in a slightly different way, working with my guides and your guides allows me to give you the information that you require without tuning into your aura. Therefore it is possible to do a reading for anyone, anywhere in the world. Your guides will know that I am doing a reading for you or may have even guided you to my website and will be with me doing your reading.
I have now done readings for people in this country and abroad, my friends, neighbours and even celebrities. It gives me such a buzz when people come back to me and tell me that what I told them has come to pass. I am frequently asked how do I do it, how do I know the things I am saying, I have even been told that it's like I am looking right into the very soul of that person. The simple answer is I don't know exactly where it comes from or how it get's into my head. I just know that I am very lucky to have been given this chance to help others with their problems, or to give the comfort to someone who has perhaps recently lost a child and wants to know they are OK. Sometimes it just amazes me so much I am in awe of the whole event. I am so lucky to have such wonderful guides who work with me in both my readings and my therapies.
Spirit Walker (Online Crystal Shop - Crystals, Tarot, Reiki)
http://www.spiritwalker.info
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