About three years ago I did a course with Psycademy and on the start of one weekend we had to write down what we wanted to happen that would make this course the very best ever. I wrote down that I had a dream and wanted my shop to be a success and I wanted to be able to give up my day job to enable me to do it. At that time Spirit Walker was just a dream in it's infancy and I had a very limiting belief that it could not work. We did a lot of work on limiting beliefs and it obviously worked as here I am today, up at 5am in the morning writing a blog. I have to admit to ignoring this blog this past few months as I have been so busy living my dream.
The point is here that what I did was cosmically ordered my dream. I thought about it and then let the universe do it's job in how to provide me with the ways in which I could do this.
Over the past number of years I have had quite a few operations. It started when I had a coil put in. This turned out to be not a good option as I had a lot of pain and never stopped bleeding. Eventually I had it taken out and opted for sterilization. This sort of went well, but I developed a haematoma after the operation (a large gathering of blood internally) and ended up going back to work after two weeks for just three days and then having another eight weeks off work. Following this I continued to have problems with bleeding and eventually had a hysterectomy and had another 6 months off work.
In between the sterilization and the hysterectomy I had quarrelled with a car whilst crossing the road and found out that I didn't in actual fact bounce too well. I ended up escaping with a fractured wrist and was ended up in plaster for 8 weeks. Being in plaster for all this time made my wrist very stiff and I was diagnosed with arthritis in both thumbs and another operation was discussed.(Just discussed - but not acted on). However this gave me another four months off work in total.
A few years later when I was in the middle of doing the course with Psycademy, I developed cholecystitis and had a few weeks off work. Followed by a suspected appendicitis and then later the actual cholecystectomy. (Removal of my gall bladder).
During my recuperation, I went off to one of my weekends at Psycademy and the Leader - Dr Lisa Turner asked me why I was giving myself all these illnesses. Now at the start of this years course, I thought she was nutz asking why I had given myself an illness.... like I would really do that to myself. By the end of the course I realised that she was entirely right. Once again some months later she asked me why I was doing this to myself. I told her that I knew why I was doing it - I didn't want to work! at least, I didn't want to work as a Midwife any longer. I wanted to spend time doing what I loved doing and that was working with crystals, Reiki and psychic readings. I also still had this limiting belief that I could not afford to give up my day job as a midwife. She told me again and again that this was a limiting belief - but would I listen... oh no.... She also told me that I either had to change the way I thought about my day job or leave and live the dream - as I could not keep giving myself all these major ailments to have long periods of time off work or I would end up with no internal organs and be like the bionic woman.
I had not consciously given myself these ailments obviously but none the less she was right and I knew I had to do something about it. So, still harbouring this limiting belief that I could not earn enough as a therapist / clairvoyant I decided to change the way I thought about my job. I kept telling myself that I was now doing health.
This worked beautifully for about two years. I stopped saying I was OK or whinging when people asked me how I was and started to tell people 'I am good thanks' even if I wasn't in reality. This worked a treat and in saying 'I am good thanks' I was actually good - thanks.
I still had this dream of Spirit Walker and being a therapist and clairvoyant and worked hard at it by getting up early every morning and working at it before going to work at my day job and then again doing readings, indulgence evenings and developing the website until late in the evening, every evening.
Christmas eve of last year I bounced out of my day job feeling good.... wished everyone a Merry Christmas and left for home. Little was I to know that I would then not be going back in the capacity that I had left.
Now I have to tell you. Every Christmas I ask the universe for something big and I have to tell you - I have had everything I ever wanted, sometimes it has not appeared on the Christmas, but I always believed that it would come within the year as a belated Christmas present - and 9 times out of 10 it did. The odd year I had to wait more than a year for what I had asked for but none the less it came to pass. This is cosmic ordering at it's best. Its about asking the universe for what you want then believing 100% without a shadow of a doubt that it will be delivered. I never put a time scale on my orders so maybe that is why I had to wait so long for them to manifest.
Last Christmas I didn't think that I had actually asked for anything. However on Christmas morning I got up and didn't feel very good. You know that old cherry - your always ill when you are off work... haha... well I just felt like I was coming down with a virus of some kind. But by 3pm I was in bed with my clothes and a layer of my husbands clothes on wrapped in a duvet and was still shivering. I must have shivered for about an hour or more before the tablets I had taken for what I thought was a bit of a temperature began to work and I stopped the shivering.
The following day, still feeling poorly, I laid about most of the day, feeling sorry for myself. That evening my husband said he was going to take our dog for a walk and feeling guilty for ruining Christmas decided to go with him. Bad move.... I began getting chest pain, but opted not to tell my husband, he just asked me why I was walking like an old women... Nice touch.... LOL.. However I was more than a bit concerned, as I was also having pain in my left arm and did wonder if it was my heart. I still decided not to tell anyone, but I did make sure the phone was charged and close to hand throughout the night just in case... In reality, this was very silly of me not to tell my husband but I didn't want to alarm him.
The only way I can describe how I was feeling was that it felt like my body was going into some kind of crisis. I hurt absolutely everywhere and when I looked in the mirror on the 27th I had a bit of a shock and looked like a corpse with absolutely no colour. I rang the GP and made an early appointment. I told her I had been taking pain killers that I had in the house and she thought that the pain in my chest was indigestion due to the tablets. I told her I didn't think so as I knew what indigestion felt like, and it was not like this. Due to the chest and arm pain she felt I should be checked out and told me to go home and that the hospital would ring me for me to go down and get checked out.
I went back home and to cut a long story shorter an ambulance arrived with a blue flashing light and I was rushed into A&E with chest pain. I felt a bit of a fraud as I didn't think it was my heart. None the less I spent the day having investigations and found out that what I had was pneumonia. Another six weeks off work. Here we go again I thought, now why did I do this to myself when I was doing health. I now had to admit to people that I was still doing health, but not doing it very well....
I was still getting pain in my arm which was getting worse and every time I went to the doc for a check on my pneumonia, I would ask about this pain in my arm which had previously been diagnosed as a frozen shoulder in the previous November. But have you noticed how you can only be ill with one thing at a time so they would tell me that they wanted to concentrate on my pneumonia. Eventually I went to see a chiropractor who refused to touch me telling me I had something wrong with my shoulder, following going back to the GP and more x-rays and finding nothing wrong with my shoulder - I was referred to a neurologist for an mri scan.
By the time I got to see the consultant I was beside myself as by now I was not sleeping due to the pain in my arm and was not coping well during the day due to lack of sleep and chronic pain. It transpired that I had a protruding disc in my neck which was causing the pain in my arms.
During this time, I wrote to Lisa again and her reply to me was, why had I given myself this now... what does this situation allow me to do, that I could not do before. Being at home allowed me to realise that I need to be here to answer the phone, to answer questions, take orders and update the website on a regular basis.
Six months later I am still off work and today I will be writing out my notice but staying on annual hours to keep my pension alive until I can retire officially next year. Today my dream comes true and I can officially say I am a professional therapist and clairvoyant with a very successful website.
So you see, I have got to live my dream, but it would appear that I unconsciously gave myself pneumonia and a slipped disc to enable my unconscious mind to prove to my conscious mind that I can in fact now, stop giving myself long term illnesses and banish that limiting belief of not being able to afford to give up my day job.
Spirit Walker (Online Crystal Shop - Crystals, Tarot, Reiki)
http://www.spiritwalker.info/
The point is here that what I did was cosmically ordered my dream. I thought about it and then let the universe do it's job in how to provide me with the ways in which I could do this.
Over the past number of years I have had quite a few operations. It started when I had a coil put in. This turned out to be not a good option as I had a lot of pain and never stopped bleeding. Eventually I had it taken out and opted for sterilization. This sort of went well, but I developed a haematoma after the operation (a large gathering of blood internally) and ended up going back to work after two weeks for just three days and then having another eight weeks off work. Following this I continued to have problems with bleeding and eventually had a hysterectomy and had another 6 months off work.
In between the sterilization and the hysterectomy I had quarrelled with a car whilst crossing the road and found out that I didn't in actual fact bounce too well. I ended up escaping with a fractured wrist and was ended up in plaster for 8 weeks. Being in plaster for all this time made my wrist very stiff and I was diagnosed with arthritis in both thumbs and another operation was discussed.(Just discussed - but not acted on). However this gave me another four months off work in total.
A few years later when I was in the middle of doing the course with Psycademy, I developed cholecystitis and had a few weeks off work. Followed by a suspected appendicitis and then later the actual cholecystectomy. (Removal of my gall bladder).
During my recuperation, I went off to one of my weekends at Psycademy and the Leader - Dr Lisa Turner asked me why I was giving myself all these illnesses. Now at the start of this years course, I thought she was nutz asking why I had given myself an illness.... like I would really do that to myself. By the end of the course I realised that she was entirely right. Once again some months later she asked me why I was doing this to myself. I told her that I knew why I was doing it - I didn't want to work! at least, I didn't want to work as a Midwife any longer. I wanted to spend time doing what I loved doing and that was working with crystals, Reiki and psychic readings. I also still had this limiting belief that I could not afford to give up my day job as a midwife. She told me again and again that this was a limiting belief - but would I listen... oh no.... She also told me that I either had to change the way I thought about my day job or leave and live the dream - as I could not keep giving myself all these major ailments to have long periods of time off work or I would end up with no internal organs and be like the bionic woman.
I had not consciously given myself these ailments obviously but none the less she was right and I knew I had to do something about it. So, still harbouring this limiting belief that I could not earn enough as a therapist / clairvoyant I decided to change the way I thought about my job. I kept telling myself that I was now doing health.
This worked beautifully for about two years. I stopped saying I was OK or whinging when people asked me how I was and started to tell people 'I am good thanks' even if I wasn't in reality. This worked a treat and in saying 'I am good thanks' I was actually good - thanks.
I still had this dream of Spirit Walker and being a therapist and clairvoyant and worked hard at it by getting up early every morning and working at it before going to work at my day job and then again doing readings, indulgence evenings and developing the website until late in the evening, every evening.
Christmas eve of last year I bounced out of my day job feeling good.... wished everyone a Merry Christmas and left for home. Little was I to know that I would then not be going back in the capacity that I had left.
Now I have to tell you. Every Christmas I ask the universe for something big and I have to tell you - I have had everything I ever wanted, sometimes it has not appeared on the Christmas, but I always believed that it would come within the year as a belated Christmas present - and 9 times out of 10 it did. The odd year I had to wait more than a year for what I had asked for but none the less it came to pass. This is cosmic ordering at it's best. Its about asking the universe for what you want then believing 100% without a shadow of a doubt that it will be delivered. I never put a time scale on my orders so maybe that is why I had to wait so long for them to manifest.
Last Christmas I didn't think that I had actually asked for anything. However on Christmas morning I got up and didn't feel very good. You know that old cherry - your always ill when you are off work... haha... well I just felt like I was coming down with a virus of some kind. But by 3pm I was in bed with my clothes and a layer of my husbands clothes on wrapped in a duvet and was still shivering. I must have shivered for about an hour or more before the tablets I had taken for what I thought was a bit of a temperature began to work and I stopped the shivering.
The following day, still feeling poorly, I laid about most of the day, feeling sorry for myself. That evening my husband said he was going to take our dog for a walk and feeling guilty for ruining Christmas decided to go with him. Bad move.... I began getting chest pain, but opted not to tell my husband, he just asked me why I was walking like an old women... Nice touch.... LOL.. However I was more than a bit concerned, as I was also having pain in my left arm and did wonder if it was my heart. I still decided not to tell anyone, but I did make sure the phone was charged and close to hand throughout the night just in case... In reality, this was very silly of me not to tell my husband but I didn't want to alarm him.
The only way I can describe how I was feeling was that it felt like my body was going into some kind of crisis. I hurt absolutely everywhere and when I looked in the mirror on the 27th I had a bit of a shock and looked like a corpse with absolutely no colour. I rang the GP and made an early appointment. I told her I had been taking pain killers that I had in the house and she thought that the pain in my chest was indigestion due to the tablets. I told her I didn't think so as I knew what indigestion felt like, and it was not like this. Due to the chest and arm pain she felt I should be checked out and told me to go home and that the hospital would ring me for me to go down and get checked out.
I went back home and to cut a long story shorter an ambulance arrived with a blue flashing light and I was rushed into A&E with chest pain. I felt a bit of a fraud as I didn't think it was my heart. None the less I spent the day having investigations and found out that what I had was pneumonia. Another six weeks off work. Here we go again I thought, now why did I do this to myself when I was doing health. I now had to admit to people that I was still doing health, but not doing it very well....
I was still getting pain in my arm which was getting worse and every time I went to the doc for a check on my pneumonia, I would ask about this pain in my arm which had previously been diagnosed as a frozen shoulder in the previous November. But have you noticed how you can only be ill with one thing at a time so they would tell me that they wanted to concentrate on my pneumonia. Eventually I went to see a chiropractor who refused to touch me telling me I had something wrong with my shoulder, following going back to the GP and more x-rays and finding nothing wrong with my shoulder - I was referred to a neurologist for an mri scan.
By the time I got to see the consultant I was beside myself as by now I was not sleeping due to the pain in my arm and was not coping well during the day due to lack of sleep and chronic pain. It transpired that I had a protruding disc in my neck which was causing the pain in my arms.
During this time, I wrote to Lisa again and her reply to me was, why had I given myself this now... what does this situation allow me to do, that I could not do before. Being at home allowed me to realise that I need to be here to answer the phone, to answer questions, take orders and update the website on a regular basis.
Six months later I am still off work and today I will be writing out my notice but staying on annual hours to keep my pension alive until I can retire officially next year. Today my dream comes true and I can officially say I am a professional therapist and clairvoyant with a very successful website.
So you see, I have got to live my dream, but it would appear that I unconsciously gave myself pneumonia and a slipped disc to enable my unconscious mind to prove to my conscious mind that I can in fact now, stop giving myself long term illnesses and banish that limiting belief of not being able to afford to give up my day job.
Spirit Walker (Online Crystal Shop - Crystals, Tarot, Reiki)
http://www.spiritwalker.info/
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